After He Cheated

by Tina
(Menifee, CA, USA)

Eight years ago we fell in love, I broke us up a few times, but he always came back to me. I ignored the signs that something was wrong and just accepted the distance between us.

Turns out he was cheating for 3 years off and on with the HR director who is 8 years his senior, from his place of work (where we met). I found out after I moved in with him and now I do not want to marry him because I do not like him for what he did. Frankly it repulses me.

Although he has said sorry, I am still too perplexed as he says the only reason he was with another woman is because she wanted him and was more passionate during their sexual encounters, which by the way, were only made possible by his use of Viagra.

I cannot believe that he says he continued to love me throughout and he explains that he was "soulless" all the while fooling me into believing that the only reason he was unavailable to me was because of familly and work related obligations. He hasn't seen the other woman for almost a year now, but I don't feel a real connection with him anymore and I'm praying for direction in this dilemma.