He Was My Best Friend

by Dani
(New Hampshire)

Back on October 31st, me and my friend, Jessica, went to a place called Charming Fare Farm in Candia, NH. We went on this hay ride and it was just me and my friend on the cart.

All of a sudden, these 2 maniacs jumped onto the cart and scared me. They had bats and masks on so I was terrified. I jumped into my friends lap and I was crying. (you may find no connection from this to the rest of the story but I promise it will make sense)

Later in November/early December, my friend Amber invited me into a private chat room. In the chatroom there were a couple of my friends and some boy whom I didn't know. I didn't talk with him in the chat and this happened almost everytime we got invited into a chatroom. Amber, my friend, was talking to him one night and I asked who it was. She said, "His name is Mikey. Last summer, our friend Devon met him at Canobie (an amusement park located in Salem NH) by saying 'i really want a highfive' and he turned around and gave her a highfive.'"

After that, Amber introduced us on Myspace. We started talking more often. Me and Mikey got pretty close and we both had a crush on each other, but we didn't date cause we hadn't met each other... or so we thought(by the way,he lives about 30 minutes from me so it wasnt super long distance).

One night on the phone, we discovered the person at Charming Fare farm that scared me WAS Mikey. How ironic! We continued to get close, but then he got into a relationship but they broke up a couple months later.

BUT while they were dating, she put him through a lot, by liking other guys and just being very rude. According to him,that's when his feelings got really strong for me. So FINALLY almost a year later, we met.

We went to nightmare new england together. That night we kissed twice... just a peck and we held hands and he held me and it was all perfect. He was flirting by picking me up and bringing me to the monsters walking around.

It was so perfect so we went again a couple weeks later with a bunch of friends. We kissed a lot, again just pecks. It was exactly the same except more kissy and lovey. He told me he was in love with me. I loved him too and we both wanted to be together.

A month later, he got into a relationship with his current girlfriend, Marissa aka Zombie(she calls herself that). Mikey had told me it was because the distance and once I get my license we will date. Later, I found out the real reason. His friend Phelan had told Mikey that I sent Phelan dirty pictures of me, which was not true. I asked Phelan about it and he denied it, so I showed Mikey the 'evidence' and we started getting lovey again(keep in mind he was still with his gf).

He told me we will be together and he still has all his feelings for me, but at the time he was trying to lose them cause he thought I was the one lying.

Last month, I told him i didn't want to wait and he has to chose (also remember he's in love with me and only likes her alot) and he said he doesnt know. I was ready to forget about him, but he told me not to. He was working on losing feelings for Marissa to make it easier on himself but also her.

Me and Mikey planned on losing our virginity to each other, but then he had sex with marissa (he put it in her, but took it out because it hurt her too much) So it was kind of like having sex?

He told me he will choose who he wants, and if it's me he will lose her in 2 weeks at most.
A week later, Marissa found out about me and Mikey. We denied it.

The next day (my birthday) I saw I was deleted from his myspace so I called to ask wht was going on,but he didn't answer. Jessica drove me there
only to have Mikey tell me that he's chosing his girlfriend.

This sucked but I was more worried about our friendship. He has yet to talk to me,he didnt say happy birthday and apparently he just needs space. I have no idea what I did wrong and no idea why he won't talk to me. I need help because he is my best friend and I still feel we have something.

There is this one song I played the night we met and it follows me and him around... all the time. I feel it's a sign, and also how we met is so crazy that I feel there's more. I'm not suicidal. I'm actually an optimist, so I try looking on the bright side of everything:)

I just want the best, most honest advice I can get.