I Want to Text Him

by Carais
(TN)

I met a guy online back in December, he pursued me first. We finally went on a first date, and I was sort of into him. He pursued me for a second date at which I was pretty nervous and got a little tipsy.

I ended up kissing and lightly making out with him. He continued to pursue heavily the next day (text and calling) I turned him down but agreed to meet him the following week for dinner.

One thing lead to another and I caved and decided to have sex with him. (it had been nearly 9 months for me) The sex was amazing lasting for hours. Needless to say I fell even harder for him.

The next day I got no call so I text him and he text back, this continued for 2 days after which he just completely stopped replying to my texts. I was shocked and hurt so I sent him a text that simply said "you suck" needless to say he replied back saying "I know, I know" and that it wasn't his intention to be a total dick and he was sorry for hurting my feelings.

I now have horrible urges to text him, i really would like something more with him, but I'm not sure if he just used me. I'm so defeated!!