Not the Person I Fell in Love With

by Anonymous

We were together for almost two years. Here it is new years and our 2 year anniversary is on January 30.

Yeah we are 15 but that doesn't mean we don't love each other. Yeah we have broken up a few times before but now i feel like this is it. We had been fighting forever and he was too wrapped up in his band, his video games and spending too much time with one friend who really was taking over.

I was jealous of their relationship. Me and his friends get along but this was overboard. I mean when we first starting dating, it was me who had the life: going out having fun and enjoying being a teenager. I was always doing something and he was home by himself. Now i stay at home and wait for him.

It's like he took my life away and he even agreed to that. I hate that i was waiting around for him to have time for me. It's like he lost interest in our relationship. I told him how i felt and he said okay. thats all he said. when he fixes things it's for a few days.

After i told him how i felt he went back the next day and then a few days after that he wanted things to work. I told him that if we were gonna be together he would need to want to fix things everyday just not half of the time. So we spend all last night and part of this morning talking about how we felt.

I was mad and angry and i wanted to break up. I'm not the type of person to just throw all of it away but i couldn't be hurt anymore. I wanted it to be mutual. I don't even know if i should go back i don't know what to do. I am just lost. I wanted my life back and it seemed as he didn't care. I am tired of people just doing this to me and i thought he wouldn't ever do this to me.

The last thing I said was we can get back together when you can be the person I fell in love with 2 years ago, i love you. ugh. i feel like crap.